Waiting....hoping???

I'm really looking forward to Christmas this year. Special K and I are decorating the house this weekend, and we are both looking forward to it too. I can't wait to get a tree and decorate it, put up garland around the railings, mini lights, wreaths, etc. Ex never wanted to do anything for Christmas, and last year was a shitty year for gifts too from him. I exactly what I didn't want...as you read when I started this blog.

I've found a great gift for Special K, I really hope he likes it. His birthday is next week and I've already bought his gift...still have to wrap it though. I even went shopping with his daughter and her friend and we picked out a gift to give him from the kids too. I love shopping for gifts this year, it feels special to do. I'm having problems thinking of a gift for my brother, but then again I've always found it difficult buying for him.

Well the waiting thing.....I'm late by four days now. Not to out of the ordinary I might say, but Special K and I aren't being 'careful' if you know what I mean. The hoping part.....I know you are thinking....too early to be doing that, but this is something I've always wanted in my life for a long time. If it turns out that this is real, I will be happy. Not sure how my mother will take it, but I know she likes Special K and I know she'll be happy if I'm happy. If I was, I would be in my 5th week now. And I'm not sure if I would tell my family before the 3 month mark, you never know before that time do you? I suppose it would be easy to tell though as I would pass on a drink or two at Christmas dinner. I'm predictable about enjoying my drink, so they would guess pretty fast.

I would be writing on my blog of course so you would know. I want to document the whole proccess if I can. So one day I can look back at it.

Anyways, that's my news this week. I know I haven't been able to write much lately, but I'll keep posting when I can.

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