Movement
Oh my goodness it feels really weird. I felt the baby move about 2 weeks ago, it felt so strange, but really good. I haven't felt it since, but it really depends on how it's moving around and if I'm too busy to actually feel it's slight movement. I know people have said it feels like bubbles, or butterflies, but I think it feels different. I guess it's because I've been around worms in the garden for too long, but to me it's like if you took a worm out of the soil and put it into a puddle of water. It wriggles around and twiches. The baby move felt just like that to me. Strange you might think, but that's what it felt like.
A side note, change of subject.
Grandma passed away back in Feb 6th. Early in the morning. She was fightingthe flu for about a week or so before she had problems breathing and was taken to hospital. I guess the flu won. She was buried in Oakville after a very nice cermoney at which I spoke at about our childhood memories on behalf of the grandchildren. She will be greatly missed, but she had a long and VERY productive life of 90 years. I just wish I could have told her I was pregnant and she was going to be a Great Grandmother.
Special K and I are still not really together. Actually we aren't. We had dinner out together and he said he wanted to be friends, only. He wants time to think....blah, blah, blah. I'm lonely, frustrated, and feeling abandonded. We planned this together, and now he's run away. He said he was in it for the long run, and said he'd take care of me. Maybe just another lie from another man.The only man a girl can trust is her Daddy I guess. I had decided that since he seems to be ignoring me, and not wanting to talk I poured my heart out in a four page letter to him. I've yet to give it to him, but maybe he'll finally see how I feel.
Ex is being a Jack A@* still. He's accepted I sent him with money, but is not accepting me helping pay for his beloved cottage. I've got a few more things back from his. About time I think since it's been almost a year. Talk about taking your time eh?
I'm feeling stressed about the whole thing between the Ex and K (he's no longer very 'Special') I'm not sure what my future holds with any body. It's difficult. But I'm not the only person going through this kind of crap, there are people worse off than I am. So I keep my chin up and try not to give into the hormones (they make me cry a lot sometimes), life is exciting, and interesting.
D
A side note, change of subject.
Grandma passed away back in Feb 6th. Early in the morning. She was fightingthe flu for about a week or so before she had problems breathing and was taken to hospital. I guess the flu won. She was buried in Oakville after a very nice cermoney at which I spoke at about our childhood memories on behalf of the grandchildren. She will be greatly missed, but she had a long and VERY productive life of 90 years. I just wish I could have told her I was pregnant and she was going to be a Great Grandmother.
Special K and I are still not really together. Actually we aren't. We had dinner out together and he said he wanted to be friends, only. He wants time to think....blah, blah, blah. I'm lonely, frustrated, and feeling abandonded. We planned this together, and now he's run away. He said he was in it for the long run, and said he'd take care of me. Maybe just another lie from another man.The only man a girl can trust is her Daddy I guess. I had decided that since he seems to be ignoring me, and not wanting to talk I poured my heart out in a four page letter to him. I've yet to give it to him, but maybe he'll finally see how I feel.
Ex is being a Jack A@* still. He's accepted I sent him with money, but is not accepting me helping pay for his beloved cottage. I've got a few more things back from his. About time I think since it's been almost a year. Talk about taking your time eh?
I'm feeling stressed about the whole thing between the Ex and K (he's no longer very 'Special') I'm not sure what my future holds with any body. It's difficult. But I'm not the only person going through this kind of crap, there are people worse off than I am. So I keep my chin up and try not to give into the hormones (they make me cry a lot sometimes), life is exciting, and interesting.
D
posted by D @ 8:28 pm
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