Figured it out

Well I think I figured it all out. We didn’t have sex the week before he lift for a work contract, and I think I know why. Not due to the lack of encouraging, but that if I fell pregnant he wouldn’t be here to say yes or no the option. He knows how I feel about having a family sooner than later and this was his way of preventing it.

Well that’s all I can figure anyways.

I do have to say that I feel unloved lately. When I speak to him on the phone and at the end of the call I tell him that I love him and he doesn’t say it back, but just says good-bye, hurts. I wish that he would say it sometimes. Maybe I should tell him how I feel, I suppose that is the only way he will know how I feel right? I’ll try that next time we talk.

Not much to report though, as he’s not here with me, so no arguments, etc. Feels nice I have to say, lets hope this time apart will do us some good.

D

Quiet now

Well the husband is now away for business for a few months. That leaves the cat and me, he took the dog. Can’t blame him as the two are inseparable. It has become very quiet here though, but I have no more worries about A ever trying to get close to him. Mind you if she did she would have a black eye to show for it.

I’m a little disappointed though. He’ll be gone for a few months and I didn’t even get sex before he went. It was a week and a half before he went and no sex. Well now what am I going to do. When he was around and there was no sex that was ok, but now if I get horny I’m kinda in a pickle aren’t I?

Oh well at least there wont be fights, or screaming, or drunken arguments. How fabulous will that be?

D