Lots going on

I'm so sorry about not writing for a while. I've been so busy with my course, and H (who is getting really big)

M and I bought a house together. Sudden I know as we have only been together for 9 months, but this is right. We've been living here for almost a month and half now, and it feels good. It feels like home.

I have a garden, and a pond, and a driveway of my own, my own ensuite (with a Jacuzzi tub) I can be with M all night and I don't feel bad about leaving Aunt.

I'm finally divorced now too. Got the papers the other day, and now I just have to have him removed from my pension.

I'm sorry this is short, but I need to get my final assignment done for my course.

TTFN,

D

Court coming up

My lawyer has informed me that we are finally going to court for my divorce. I can't wait! Yes Ex will be there too, I'm not sure if he'll say anything to me.....have to wait and see.

He knows that H exists and says to my friend that he is happy for me. Ha ha ha he's so funny! Oh and he says he misses me too.....I think he means to say that he misses someone to wash his clothes, dishes, toilet.....etc.

Truth be told.....I don't miss him at all.

H is doing great, she is growing lots, and is making all sorts of noises. She's so cute. She takes up most of my time, but I love it.

I'm still with M.....and I'm still very happy with him. My living arrangements sometimes sucks as we don't have the chance to have alone time together.....always someone home.

Anyways I got to run.

D

10 Weeks

H is 10 weeks old and I took her to the Zoo for the first time last week. I think I had more fun then she did. I took her for her firtst set of immuniations the other week. She cried and then I almost cried knowing my baby hurt from the needle.

K...well he's an idiot. 'nuff said. Ok not actually enough said. Never mind....he's not worth wasting my breath on right now.

M and I are doing well still. His back is getting better every day, which I'm thankful for. Things have been slow between us because of his back, been tough, but it's ok.

We had thanksgiving the other week, H slept through most of it, M didn't come. My mother has told me she doesn't like him because he reminds her of my Ex. Bunch of crock in my mind, but he though that it would be better to avoid her for a little while and let her coold down. Smart man.

Not a lot has happened around here....the divorce is still in process...no suprise there.

Got to go....

D

7 weeks

H is now 7 weeks old, and her father K has contacted me through e-mail. Even after I informed him not to do so unless it's through my lawyer. He doesn't seem to be interested in being part of our life, and I'm fine with that. He can sign away all rights and stay away until she is 18 or she goes to find him at 18. I have never said H was never his, and I never told him to stay away and stay out of our lives forever. But he says in his e-mail that he has trouble to pay his child support to his ex-wife for this other 3 children.

I don't need K's money, and I don't want it either. I am more then capable of raising her on my own. I have an education, and experience in my job. It will be tough, but I can do it. After all, one day I may meet a great guy and he may decide to raise H as his own. I don't think K ever wanted H or ever wanted me either. But I now have a child, and I'm so happy for it.

H was weighted last week and is now up to 10 Lbs. 4.5 ozs. H is getting big, but it's hard to believe it's been only 7 weeks. Time flies. And she seems to be sleeping better too. We are up to 5 1/2 hours in a row at night. Keep fingers crossed that it stayued that way...and gets better.

Got to get going.

D

Long time....18 hours actually

18 hours of labour. And I only had the epidural for the last 2 1/2 hours of it. I'm such a trouper! August 9 2008.

She is beautiful too. I thought that I was biased because she's mine.....but she really is pretty. I'm gonna call her H on this blog. She was 7 Lbs. when she was born and now weighs 7Lbs. 13 ozs.

We are on a good schedule too 4 hours between feeds. Ah the sleep we get at night is wonderful.

M gave me a diamond necklace when she was born. I think I am in love with him.....truly in love. What man would be by my side through the entire labour (FYI it started at midnight), hold my hand through it, and give me the most wonderful gift once my child was born.

M and I are great together. We talk about the future, and our pasts. We truely enjoy what we have.

Well I must keep this short. Laundry to do.......and snuggles too.

D

The name game

Well things are getting bigger and better on this end. Straight out front.

M and I are doing great. Still taking is slow, but we are enjoying every moment we get together. Sometimes we just go out to a park and listen to music, drink hot chocolate, and talk about things in our life. M was getting fed up with calling the bump baby, or it so we came up with a cooler version. We've called it Jessie. See now that name is unisex, no one will really know what the sex is. So now it's always Jessie this or that. Kinda nice to put a name to it, even if it's not the name Jessie will get in the end. M even comes to my midwife appts if I have no one to go with. (K never wanted to go, even refused) I think I'll keep my eye on M.

K has decided to start calling me again, and not replying to me e-mails. He is now accusing me of not being able to handle a baby on my own, nto being mentally stable. He's also begun saying that if the child is his he has no problem in calling the poilce or children's aid on me if Jessie is in danger. He's started blaming me of having a dual personalty, and I'm moody all the time. But then he says that we did have a good relationship while we were together, but he had issues over how I treated him and his children. I guess that's why I was evicted and abandonded when I was 3 months along. I was moody.

So I've sent him an e-mail asking him if he wants a peternity test, and to stop calling me names as I find it harrassing and threatoning. I will not tollerate someone saying bad things about me. First....it's not nice. Second.....It's not very mature (he's 42 after all). Third.....it's against the law.


Well here I am on the second last day of work.....horray! I've got 4 weeks to go once this is over, but sooooo much to do in the mean time. Busy bee over here.

Must toddle off.

D

K's denial

Well here is goes.....ready for this.

For those that knew K in my life and how 'happy' he was to have bump, he has now sent me an e-mail apparently denying it's his. Stating that (what I assume) that I was unfaithful. Well everybody that knows me, knows that I would never cheat. As tempting as it has been in my miserable marriage for so many years (and yes I did get offers) I never once considered taking up on the offer.

So I think I've decided to not put his name on bumps birth certificate. If he thinks for one second I'd cheat on him, then he never knew me very good. As a matter of fact I don't think we really knew each other well enough to get ourselves into what we have. Yes I rushed things too quick, no I do not regret any part of it. I've got bump to look forward to now.

As for Ex I'm waiting to hear back from lawyer about the court date. Ex can't be happy. Poor little cottage wave bye bye to it......

Other than all that crap, M and I are still seeing each other every once and a while. Taking it slow.....very slow. I'm happy with the progression of the relationship, and we've talked a lot...about a lot of different things. Sometimes we just grab a hot chocolate and watch the fireflies in a near by park. It's nice. I like it.

Life is getting better, bump is getting bigger, I feel better about my situation now too. Things are looking up.

D